March 09

This was the month of the male cameltoe, hence the green dot in my crotch.






Here you can see my adamsapple, which was kind of large even before T. Not all of those black dots are blackheads, some are actually stubble!




Lately I've been kind of moody and irritable, I'm trying to explore that. Not like I'm depressed again, so I guess it is partly things surfacing from the days when I was too busy with mere survival, and also that nowadays I have no relay to my feelings (I mean, more than the normal social/perceptive/whatever filter needed to function), so I experience my emotions instantly, not after random lagging periods (hours/days/weeks). It's interesting, but kind of exhausting, so I'll find some way to cope with this newfound "normality" (at least I think this is how people in general do it).

Endochrinology

I went to the endochrinologist yesterday. He told me that I'm very thick, ha ha, that is my cranial wall is very thick (3 cm). He was amused, so was I.

He also told me that the x-rays had revealed that I've gained 5 kgs of muscle mass, and lost 5 kgs of fat tissue over the last year.

Testosterone rocks...

February 09

A good day to y'all!



Here is my chest, I tried to show off my chest hair (or, shall I say chest HAIRS, there are about three of them), but that didn't work out.

It is soon-to-be spring here, I love it. It's gonna be awesome this summer, at least I hope so. I'll go work at the same place as last summer, so I'll get to swim and canoe around the archipelago and make some money, because I've decided to save up money for a dick prothesis. I've looked around on the options and I think I'll go for one made by a swedish prosthetic technician (?). He seems to have the nicest erectile function of the models I've checked out, though it is also the most expensive one.

Thus far I've checked www.ftmprosthetics.com, http://www.tyron2.net/ and this swedish guy (who has no website yet, but his emailaddress is mikael.sundstrom (at) protesteknikinorr.se).

Ftmprosthetics I like, but the dual (which you can use both for everyday packing and sex) is always the same size, and always kind of hard. You just bend it up or down. Otherwise I think it is really nicely done, realistic and all.

Tyron2 looks nice when flaccid, but kind of weird when erect. I also don't really fancy the back holder, seems inconvenient. I think the knob that's supposed to stimulate the microdick when the prosthetic is erect is a great idea.

The swedish guy uses a similar erection mechanism as the tyron2, but not with air but some kind of silicone gel in the ballsack, in a closed system. Thats about all I know for now, but I'll fill in more.

1 yr on T comparison

Less dough on the belly, heh! Also, my face has become more angular, hair is everywhere, I need to shave every 2 days, my voice has dropped 1,5 octaves but I've not lost my high frequency voice, which is kind of interesting. I'd make for an excellent yodeler or something.

My mind is all the same, I'd say, except for the depression which is gone (I'm still on medication, so I won't have a relapse - after all, I've been clinically depressed most of my life).

I'm excited to see what the coming year will bring, T-ways and other.

Jan 09

So here I am, almost 2 months post op. Kind of amusing that you still can see the tanning marks around the nipples from the tape I used all summer long. There is a little excess skin around the left nipple, but I think it might tighten up. All in all - very satisfied.


Belly hair has expanded up the sternum, though the chest hair would probably not be visible in a photo just yet. But I assure you it hurt like hell when I taped the nipples a while ago, when I went swimming... Or, shall I say, when I removed the tape...



I think that my back has made an impressive change these last 12 months on T. Watching those pre-T photos is funny, because I didn't have ANY muscles on my entire back, only like string connecting bones and a little fat on them.

I've really enjoyed the change brought on by the T and the transition in general. I'm SO much more confortable and simply happier than (dare I say) ever before, which is not to say that everything is coming up roses or that all of my previous unhappiness was due to the transsexualism, but it sure has helped dealing with LIVING, not just struggling to survive.

Measurements jan 09

Height: 175 cm
Weight: 75 kgs

Neck: 34 cm
Chest: 92 cm
Waist: 77 cm
Hips: 104 cm
Thigh: 59 cm
Calf: 38 cm
Upper arm: 31 cm
Forearm: 27 cm

Foot 28 cm (+1 cm since start of T)

A small decrease in ass size? Yes please.

mastectomy pics

One week post surgery, with stitches right in the nipples. Good thing I have no sensation in them whatsoever...


2 weeks post surgery, removed the stitches myself. I am very pleased so far, the nipples and areolas are healing nicely and are just the right size now. I can't wait until I get to work out again!