Beard

The other day, a fouryearold said matter-of-factly: "you have stubble". That was nice. So here's the stubble, 1 yr 10 months on T.

the beard

This is what happens when I don't shave for three days.

On another note: I need some serious change in my life.

measurements july 09

Height: 175 cm
Weight: 75 kgs

Neck: 35 cm
Chest: 95 cm
Waist: 79 cm
Hips: 106 cm
Thigh: 59 cm
Calf: 39 cm
Upper arm: 32 cm
Forearm: 28 cm

july 09

lo and behold, I'm back. My computer died so I was kind of crippled for almost 3 months.


Having waited almost 9 months since last surgery, I think I'd like a small revision around the right nipple. Not as much to remove the scarring, but to remove some residual fat which looks like a tiny boob (when I'm relaxed, unlike in this photo, where I stumbled on the mess in my room, and almost fell over the camera).


I seem unable to get rid of the lovehandles, I need more cardio...


Right now I am EAGERLY awaiting my custom made dick prosthetic. It should arrive by mail tomorrow.

March 09

This was the month of the male cameltoe, hence the green dot in my crotch.






Here you can see my adamsapple, which was kind of large even before T. Not all of those black dots are blackheads, some are actually stubble!




Lately I've been kind of moody and irritable, I'm trying to explore that. Not like I'm depressed again, so I guess it is partly things surfacing from the days when I was too busy with mere survival, and also that nowadays I have no relay to my feelings (I mean, more than the normal social/perceptive/whatever filter needed to function), so I experience my emotions instantly, not after random lagging periods (hours/days/weeks). It's interesting, but kind of exhausting, so I'll find some way to cope with this newfound "normality" (at least I think this is how people in general do it).

Endochrinology

I went to the endochrinologist yesterday. He told me that I'm very thick, ha ha, that is my cranial wall is very thick (3 cm). He was amused, so was I.

He also told me that the x-rays had revealed that I've gained 5 kgs of muscle mass, and lost 5 kgs of fat tissue over the last year.

Testosterone rocks...

February 09

A good day to y'all!



Here is my chest, I tried to show off my chest hair (or, shall I say chest HAIRS, there are about three of them), but that didn't work out.

It is soon-to-be spring here, I love it. It's gonna be awesome this summer, at least I hope so. I'll go work at the same place as last summer, so I'll get to swim and canoe around the archipelago and make some money, because I've decided to save up money for a dick prothesis. I've looked around on the options and I think I'll go for one made by a swedish prosthetic technician (?). He seems to have the nicest erectile function of the models I've checked out, though it is also the most expensive one.

Thus far I've checked www.ftmprosthetics.com, http://www.tyron2.net/ and this swedish guy (who has no website yet, but his emailaddress is mikael.sundstrom (at) protesteknikinorr.se).

Ftmprosthetics I like, but the dual (which you can use both for everyday packing and sex) is always the same size, and always kind of hard. You just bend it up or down. Otherwise I think it is really nicely done, realistic and all.

Tyron2 looks nice when flaccid, but kind of weird when erect. I also don't really fancy the back holder, seems inconvenient. I think the knob that's supposed to stimulate the microdick when the prosthetic is erect is a great idea.

The swedish guy uses a similar erection mechanism as the tyron2, but not with air but some kind of silicone gel in the ballsack, in a closed system. Thats about all I know for now, but I'll fill in more.